Homer,
I cant believe it, Its almost been a year since you left us. 365 days actually, and before you say anything Yes I do know that a year had 365 days. But! Since its a leap year it there is an extra day to be counted. Otherwise it would be a year today. I find it hard to believe that that much time has passed. It seems like it was only last week that M and I were sitting on the sofa in the old flat, Eating chicken kieves with mashed potato's when Tash called to give me the news. I didn't know who was on the phone at first. It came up with a number and I could see that it was Canadian, but I never for one moment thought that it was going to be the news that it was. I still feel numb about it all, It doesn't seem real that you are gone. I miss you every day. There is so much that I want to tell you about. I got into University! I'm now studying to get my Bachelor of Science in Adult Nursing. I've decided that I am no longer going to let things hold me back. I'm taking your lead. I am going to Live my life rather than just roll over and let it pass me by. I've got a new apartment, Its Amazing! you would totally approve. Its nothing like the old one. Its warm, has central heating, hot water, No damp, or mould. When you clean it it still looks clean five minutes later. I really love it. M and I are still together. I don't know what I would have done without him. I know that you really didn't like the guy I was with when I left Canada. But I think you would have liked him alot better than the one I got together with after him. That one you would have actually smacked me upside the head and asked what the hell I was thinking. But M is good. He puts up with my nonsense, (most of the time) makes sure that I am safe, and not getting myself into trouble. But best of all, when something is wrong, He doesn't just tell me to sort it out myself. He helps me to do it. He supports me without doing it for me. He loves me, and I can't believe how lucky I am that I have someone like that.
M&D have some news that I haven't really told anyone yet. They are moving back to CL as long as everything goes according to plan, D's been offered his old job back but with the CRAF this time rather than the RAF. I am so pleased for him! Its what he has wanted since he knew that we would have to come back here. I think its great for him, but at the same time it sucks. I'm really going to miss them. I wont be able to just call them up and see if they want to meet for a coffee or anything in town anymore. I am grateful for where they are going too though, because I know that they will be able to keep and eye on J and the boys for the both of us. I know that shes with your family. But I miss her too.
I was talking to a friend about tattoos the other day. Cant remember how we got onto the topic. Think it was about the fact that I cant get them, but that I want to get another piercing for you, but will have to wait till after Uni before I can as I am not supposed to wear earrings for placements or some classes. It made me think of yours. The irony now of your shoulder one. the contrast in most of your of Fire and Ice. I was looking through your pictures trying to find one in particular, but I didn't have much luck. The one of you hanging over the hole. I like that photo. I still have the grad one that you gave me, Its on my dressing table in that fluffy purple frame, Next to the one of MB at her grad. Did I tell you shes got a new apartment with her OH? Its really nice. I cant believe how grown up she is now.
Well I still miss you, and I do think about you most days. Some are better than other, but none of them have me missing you any less. I love you big brother, I Hope that you are sleeping well and watching over all of us from where ever you are. Tomorrow is going to suck, I have no illusions that it wont. But I'll raise a glass and salute your memory.
*Love & Hugs* Homer
You'll Always Be Missed
Pippy.
I cant believe it, Its almost been a year since you left us. 365 days actually, and before you say anything Yes I do know that a year had 365 days. But! Since its a leap year it there is an extra day to be counted. Otherwise it would be a year today. I find it hard to believe that that much time has passed. It seems like it was only last week that M and I were sitting on the sofa in the old flat, Eating chicken kieves with mashed potato's when Tash called to give me the news. I didn't know who was on the phone at first. It came up with a number and I could see that it was Canadian, but I never for one moment thought that it was going to be the news that it was. I still feel numb about it all, It doesn't seem real that you are gone. I miss you every day. There is so much that I want to tell you about. I got into University! I'm now studying to get my Bachelor of Science in Adult Nursing. I've decided that I am no longer going to let things hold me back. I'm taking your lead. I am going to Live my life rather than just roll over and let it pass me by. I've got a new apartment, Its Amazing! you would totally approve. Its nothing like the old one. Its warm, has central heating, hot water, No damp, or mould. When you clean it it still looks clean five minutes later. I really love it. M and I are still together. I don't know what I would have done without him. I know that you really didn't like the guy I was with when I left Canada. But I think you would have liked him alot better than the one I got together with after him. That one you would have actually smacked me upside the head and asked what the hell I was thinking. But M is good. He puts up with my nonsense, (most of the time) makes sure that I am safe, and not getting myself into trouble. But best of all, when something is wrong, He doesn't just tell me to sort it out myself. He helps me to do it. He supports me without doing it for me. He loves me, and I can't believe how lucky I am that I have someone like that.
M&D have some news that I haven't really told anyone yet. They are moving back to CL as long as everything goes according to plan, D's been offered his old job back but with the CRAF this time rather than the RAF. I am so pleased for him! Its what he has wanted since he knew that we would have to come back here. I think its great for him, but at the same time it sucks. I'm really going to miss them. I wont be able to just call them up and see if they want to meet for a coffee or anything in town anymore. I am grateful for where they are going too though, because I know that they will be able to keep and eye on J and the boys for the both of us. I know that shes with your family. But I miss her too.
I was talking to a friend about tattoos the other day. Cant remember how we got onto the topic. Think it was about the fact that I cant get them, but that I want to get another piercing for you, but will have to wait till after Uni before I can as I am not supposed to wear earrings for placements or some classes. It made me think of yours. The irony now of your shoulder one. the contrast in most of your of Fire and Ice. I was looking through your pictures trying to find one in particular, but I didn't have much luck. The one of you hanging over the hole. I like that photo. I still have the grad one that you gave me, Its on my dressing table in that fluffy purple frame, Next to the one of MB at her grad. Did I tell you shes got a new apartment with her OH? Its really nice. I cant believe how grown up she is now.
Well I still miss you, and I do think about you most days. Some are better than other, but none of them have me missing you any less. I love you big brother, I Hope that you are sleeping well and watching over all of us from where ever you are. Tomorrow is going to suck, I have no illusions that it wont. But I'll raise a glass and salute your memory.
*Love & Hugs* Homer
You'll Always Be Missed
Pippy.
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